1 Down, A Whole Lot More to Go

Hey guys! Been a while since I’ve posted anything up here. In exam mode here, and I thought that this would just represent a small break away from work for the day. Bit worried about my first paper, think that the setup for the practical was done wrongly for me. All my results were off from what the others were, but I guess I’ll have to make do. Apart from that one question, I guess I was pretty confident about that paper.

Life goes on, I guess.

A whole lot of tests coming up for me over the next few days including a small matter (yeah, I say that now, I might not say the same thing come the end of the exam xD) of a Physics practical tomorrow afternoon, so I’m gonna be really busy.

I guess I’m pretty dumb to pick this to be the time to pick up Dota 2 as well. For all that don’t know what DOTA 2 is, its a game. Just a huge game. I’m a big nerd I guess – and I love those type of stuff. Been playing a bit but also been trying to control the time I am on the game. Just really hope that I won’t look back on this moment in my life and regret it. I guess I’m thankful for my upbringing being in Singapore. It gave me a giant headstart before I moved. Lost time after the first move. I think I was held back one year because of my age – I could have easily just gone straight to the next year. School was holding me back.

Another move and I was in Kuala Lumpur, where I guess it is the best of both worlds. Not a breeze like in my second school, but not as extreme as the Singaporean education system.

But yeah, played some badminton today, and headed for some more exams tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Regrettable Actions and Debatably Wrong Decisions

On most days, I come to you guys with some sorta funny story. But today, I just wanna hear what your thoughts of about my current dilemma. Here you will realize once again that I’m a terrible decision maker.

So, a few years back, I had a really good friend. And I guess by the way I’ve worded my opening paragraph, you guys will be able to work out its about a girl (I’m a guy, just to make it clear). I was really close to this girl, and I guess we were on that step right before a relationship. Reasons why it wasn’t at least officially a relationship include my reluctance to have a label hanging around my neck (but no, I’m not a whore, I’m 16 and Chinese, my parents will actually still kill me if I had a relationship – and they will find out if they did considering I have a sister just a year below, going to the same school as me).

But I really wanted to stop it before it went further. It got a bit too annoying at one point. To be honest, I just liked her as a friend, and I sorta just wanted to make that clear to her. So I made the decision to completely cut her out from my life. I bet you guys didn’t see that coming. xD This happened two years ago, and people still ask me why I did it today. Its difficult to explain, but yeah.

Then, just a few months back, a really good friend of mine did something to have to try and break past that awkward stage once again. But is it okay to just go back into her life (as a friend – definitely can’t be the other way at least now) now?

But sorry for the lazy post. Been really busy of late (despite the holiday).

No Man’s Switzerland

I hate big decisions. Actually let my rephrase that. I suck at big decisions. In my life, I reckon that I’ve had to (been made to/at least followed what my mum’s said) make like huge decisions that I can visibly see change my life before doing it (not like the I decide not to commit suicide type of thing, because those types are… I guess not rational choices to make.

Two big decisions I have had to make.

A) Whether I should give up a PR

Let’s just say if I didn’t give up this PR, I would have had to served the army for this country (lose time), and if I did (and I did), then I probably would have a lot of problems if I ever wanted to go back there, or simply if I wanted to go back for any form of social visit. So that’s probably one one of the biggest decisions I have ever made in my life to date, I reckon.

But the process was long and arduous. For months and months, my parents continually requested that I keep thinking about it, but in all honesty, I didn’t know. I even think they made the choice for me. My initial thoughts: give up. So they went along with that. Then, we collectively thought that it was just two years, so we might as well do it. Next thing you know, 3 days later, they come up to me with the very same question, “do you wanna give it up”. And I guess things happened, and I just gave it up.

B) Where I would go for college

Even this isn’t confirmed yet. I’m sure that there were a few more arguments in the coming weeks about this: where I am going to for college. You see, I am already at this school with a college system set up (but consists of the secondary and primary kids too). I was thinking about moving to an entirely new school – a proper college – which would be a more professional environment to be in.

It was cheaper, it was more efficient, and there were some good reviews of the school. I honestly thought I was going there, but no. My mum calls my cousin or something, and he says that people in that school have been struggling – or at least something along those lines. Close that door, stay in my current school.

I just hope that these decisions turn out to be correct in the end. What are the biggest decisions that you guys have had to made in your life so far?

As usual, below is a pic of me. With a trophy that I won yesterday night. Really happy to have won the award.

 

Asian Problems | My Eyes Always Seem Closed in Photos

Yes. Really racist. I know what you are thinking in your head. But I’m pretty sure that its perfectly acceptable considering the rest of the world acknowledge the Chinese small eye trait, and sometimes you just gotta laugh to yourself about it.

But its true.

What comes next is a picture of me trying to get my eyes as big as possible (without looking stupid) after 5 minutes of trying.

If you guys saw my last post’s ending, you will probably understand. I actually just noticed it earlier on today and thought I should write something about it. In all honesty, when I look at a mirror, my eyes don’t look that small. When I look at some of my photos, I seriously can’t see them. Its not a flash effect, its not me blinking at the wrong time all the time, I just think that I have this problem of opening my eyes wide – something that I’m pretty sure at least a few Asians (or at least the Chinese, Korean & Japanese ones) can agree with.

But in other news, I’m going for this sorta awards dinner in a couple of hours. Gonna be with my boys – my badminton boys that is, and we’ll probably make a meal out of the night. The funniest bunch of idiots I will have ever met. Next photo: me (middle) with two of my best friends I could have ever asked for. Hang out loads, and I really would be bored without these idiots from my badminton team.

And I guess I really couldn’t have picked a better photo in terms of showing you guys how small my eyes are in photos. And to be honest, I think I was consciously trying to keep my eyes as open as possible for this picture – guess it didn’t really work out for me in the end. But still love the photo, I guess its one of the few photos that the three of us have had together. Been through loads with them from going to Koh Phi Phi, to going to Bangkok last year, and just having an absolute blast. I guess you can tell how silly the trio are by the guy next to me (no crutches) wearing slippers to a smart casual event.

And really love the photo quality on my new phone, much better than my old Nokia Lumia 710, I reckon. Love Samsung Galaxy S3 Mini!

Single & With No Game

Hi ladies I’m single! (and clearly desperate now as well) But I guess its a bit weird for me to not be chasing a girl at the point in time (or for the past 4 months for that fact) and I thought I would just like to write about it on my blog.

The last girl I liked? Well, she ran away to Australia because I freaked her out. Kidding. She was something like my best friend and we would talk for hours and hours together on Skype. (I know its not me creeping because she called me – I act too big to call people sometimes, people have to call me unless I’m desperate xD) But her parents decided to put her in a school in Australia, so I couldn’t ask her out or anything. Probably wouldn’t have done the same thing I could get one do over. I guess sometimes I’m just scared I’ll get rejected and the friendship will get weird. I guess I should have done anyways. Barely (seriously minimal) talk to her nowadays and time has just moved us along.

The thing is, when I think in my mind that I like a girl. I do everything in my power to seriously get her. Its the little things I guess. Talking to her on Facebook for hours, going with her to events, arranging meetups, trying to talk to her as much as possible, those bits and blobs. But lately, no girl has been on my mind. I guess its good. It keeps me more free. I’ve been quite tied up with badminton of late with competitions and such, and its nice to keep an open mind – not just focus on a particular girl – in order to see what comes along, what happens, etc.

But now, I just have a lot of friendships like this:

I guess that’s all for now. In other news: I got a new phone.

The Daily Prompt | Planned Spontaneity

I’ve been watching the show F.r.i.e.n.d.s a lot lately, and I am really starting to love it again. In other news, I am still single and in search of something to spend my time on.

What are you more comfortable with — routine and planning, or laissez-faire spontaneity?

In all honesty, I feel that I am more comfortable with routine and planning. However, that’s not saying that I enjoy it more. Comfort and enjoyment are two slightly different things – although comfort does indeed contribute to the enjoyment of something. I guess a good analogy would be that someone having a very planned life would be like a car just continually going in a straight line. No ups, no downs. Just running through the motions, in essence. Whilst having spontaneity in your life is a bit like a rollercoaster. Times when you will suddenly experience a big change quickly.

But in some ways, you’ve gotta force spontaneity. You can’t just sit around on your couch waiting for the sky to fall. In many ways, you can’t map out your life to the extent that you won’t experience anything new. You’ve got to have a ridiculously controlled environment in order for that to happen.

I guess relationships are like this. And by relationships, I do mean boyfriend-girlfriend type of relationships. The chase is when boy chases girl. Boy tries to woo girl with spontaneity, lots of presents, lots of love. There’s only one thing on the boy’s mind. But as time passes, that spontaneity sometimes disappears – and this is usually what causes the breakdown in a relationship.

Maybe it is just me. Maybe not. But its because I sometime stop and think whether the girl I am with/chasing is really right for me. Call it being choosy, call it trying to find the right one, eventually my pursuit does eventually stop/end and everything has got to start from square one with another girl all over again.

Spontaneity is the very cause of you having memories to keep for the rest of your life. The decisions you make and the risks you take are determinant of this.

Time Helplessly Passing By

I am a humour blogger. It is usually what I write about (when I’m not writing about Liverpool that is) and what I like to do. But I guess considering I haven’t been blogging in a while, I thought I would just like to pen my thoughts on the past few months or so, considering I could be dead to those who follow this space for all I care (although it would hardly matter).

So many big decisions coming my way, all followed by each other. At least I think I’ve got the difficult ones out of the way – this being where I’m studying and what I’m studying for my A Levels. I just hope that the pieces of the jig-saw eventually come into place when the time is right. For me, it is all about delivering results, and doing that all whilst not putting too much of a strain on myself (yes, I find that of vast importance to me).

2 months till my first few real “big exams” that should eventually close a few doors and open a few others as time continues just like clockwork (if that makes any sense whatsoever). I guess considering I’ve already got two exams out of the way (being my Malay as second language and my Maths) early was good. I can go into the exam halls come May/June with the knowledge that I’ve got 2 As in the bag (A* for Maths – come on, I’m Chinese – and A for Malay as a second language – give me a chance, I hadn’t studied Malay until very late on in my life). But 9 exams are still there to take, so I guess I just gotta go all out for these final months and deliver.

Another thing that I’ve been busy with lately has been badminton, and I’m happy. From a second placed finish in a competition last year, I stepped in as captain of a very young team this year and helped the team to a win with a 100% winning record. (that’s me right in the middle holding the plate – if you really couldn’t tell, I’m the guy) This team’s got my friends and I just love this team to bits – we’re really tight as a group, especially the guys, considering we’ve kept this team for what has been 2 years now, so we fool around, we joke around, these guys are just the best people to be around. Its definitely be one of my most memorable moments of the past few years, I guess, being captain and winning this title.

Not sure whether I’ll be updating this space more or less frequently, but I just think there’s been a lot on my mind of late, and blogging has always been a good way of clearing my mind.